July 18: Disconnected Call -> The Viper Peak

That's what I could remember. I called you and catch you in the middle of something, perhaps you were eating. Someone came and you attended to her - asking her to eat. You offered something and left your phone unattended, without even excusing yourself, you just stood right up, and left. Then the phone camera went off and the call ended. I waited a little bit but you never get back to me, no call, no chat, no text. How would you think I will feel after waiting for nothing? You may be busy but I can't believe you cannot handle your business very well. You always leave me behind.

Afternoon siesta time when I tried all my best to forget your unapologetic retreat but I can't sleep, I can't rest. I wanted to just cry and explode and I know it won't be healthy for my weekend. I chanced to check on social media and confirmed that Viper Peak is just a couple of hours away - and the rest is a tiresome trek with Gay and Lovely. I'm glad they were up to my ambush. The rest of the afternoon, you tried calling me. I got nine missed calls and a couple of chats. I hate it. It wasn't enough for me. You always make me feel alone. Being alone and being left alone are two different things. I wasn't lonely when I was alone before but now that I thought there was "us" I am feeling alone all the more. Can't I be myself with you? Were you expecting me to be a saint? Heck, I am not! I have all the madness and craziness reserved that is usually intended for the one I got my heart attached to. Isn't that a default attitude of most people?

I saw you were online for a bit then you played ML then you slept. That was the end of our day yesterday. I don't get anything more, always less. Every day I feel less of a person than you had and darn it's making me crazy! That's why I prefer to just get tired over other lousy things. Truth be told? I would fancy looking at you for the whole day than going out...but you are too insensitive! I don't know what's gotten to you. Speak up, will you?