July 22: You woke me up

Thank you for waking me up. You must've expected that I doze off, did you? Anyway, you expected right. You excused yourself last night because you wanted a nap while I stayed up. I was actually sleepy so I waited some more time to login ahead and did my power nap too but it became a two-hour sleep or so.

So uuhhmmm, nothing fancy, no endearment and words of love, we were chatting like old friends we were. Kind of awkward because I wanted to be clingy but I couldn't and I wouldn't. It hurts when you aren't reciprocated, you know, so I better not. I'll see how the day goes and how the music in my heart flows...am I hearing melancholic songs, slow rock, pure jazz, who knows, all I want is peace and with or without your participation, I'll try to achieve that. Oh, by the way, I had a quick chat with Celil...she told me she had issues with expressing herself. I wanted to hear from you every now and then and just poke you around you know...but how it goes with us now, the vibe isn't just up with it. I started to think if you ever had some issues expressing yourself too, do you?

I let bygones be bygones but I can't delete in my head the conversations you had that I've read and I read over and over again. You weren't the silent type at all. You are talkative when you want to, just not with me now, I guess.

You chatted now that you were done playing and you will go to sleep. That's fine. I bid you sleep tight. I will let you handle us this time, I'll have you take the lead and however it leads us and however it drives my heart, if I can no longer take it, we'll both find out. It's not just with how I feel, it's also with how I feel from you. If you aren't inspired to go on, I'll certainly know. My heart doesn't lie.

IMPORTANT UPDATE!!!

Hahahahaha...sooooo...I was kind of depressed because you did not read my messages on ML...BUT, I saw your uploaded photo of us, and my heart went Oooops! Happy me! (n_n)