July 17: Your senior and your cleaning

We had a great day supposedly. In the morning you shared tidbits about your senior. I like it every time you share a lot of things. I feel closer to you. Then you actually had an open forum with your "hilas" senior and another senior who meddled in your issues. It went well. We were good. Then you left me hanging again. I started to feel bad but it was all saved by that charming smile. Namalita ka semu newly cleaned teeth...you were thinking kng mgpa brace ka or not...it's okay...you weren't telling me what you are up to so all I can think of is that I am left alone again.

Why do you always make me feel left out? Why do I feel like makadomdom lang ka sa akoa kng wala nakay lain gabuhaton? Ikaw man ang unlicall diba? Naa man pud ka internet...nganu dli nimu kaya mag chat or text sa akoa for your updates? I mean, mingawon man gud ko semu ba...pero dli cguro nimu na ma feel? Mabaw radyud unta kaau ko ug kalipay...and it is hurting every time I feel alone because you make me feel so.

Immature lang dyud ata kaayo ko? Dili ko nimu masabtan kay wala pud ka kaila sa akoa man gud. I feel like you don't even exert an effort to know me. I dunno, selfish ba ko? All I know is that I am hurting every day. Ka lousy ba! Nganu mag cge ko ug hilak man? Alang gusto na taka kaayo bulagan Jeany Roe kung kabalo lang ka!!! Dli ko ga ganahan nga prime mag hilak2x over nonsense. Worst, ako radyud nakabalo saq feelings...it's very pathetic. But my logic and my feelings are in great contradiction. I can't just do it. Don't play around with my feelings anymore...please!