July 2: Even when/The best part...

It's 9:46 in the morning and I cannot send you any morning greetings. I just couldn't. I'm listening to this tune and for some reason, all I wanna do is cry...

Then stalker as I am, all I need to do is stalk...then found this on your wall:

Paubaya...is this for me or is this supposed to be my song for you? I've heard you listen to all those songs before...and I hear you. I will wait for you to just tell me what you think and what you feel...I'll let you be...I'll let me be...I have to be able to endure you. After all, I want you to love yourself first. So do that and I'm happy to see you learn and grow, really. I know there is someone else you are rooting for. Darling a piece of advice, heal yourself first...we all are human and are subject to shared experiences and habits. If you have not fully moved on and healed, you won't be able to fully enjoy the person, you will keep recalling and attributing past mistakes and heartaches to the present one. I just hope it's all worth your while.

Update:

July 2, 2021, @11:51 PM. I was ahead of my alarm clock. I was still very sleepy but thinking of you makes me get up. Yeah, I finally endured my uncontainable desire to reach out. I guess I've said too much but it's fine. After all, I really wanted to say those things though it was all of a sudden again. I wasn't at all very tactful. I'm sorry, not sorry coz it's been gone and done...then I said good night, you only smirked...or so I thought.